Your not so daily dose of Mary

Beep Boop Beep

2011-04-16T21:21:00.002-04:00

So it is official i am bad a blogging, or i have issues writing what is in my brain. It is Saturday night and i am not sure what i want to do, i want to go out but it is still kind of crappy outside. I guess i should probably figure out what dinner is first. Or maybe going out could be dinner. But i don't like going out for food by my self. Wow sooooo indecisive... yup i may just starve before i figure out what i want to do. This should be interesting......

I can never think of a good title

2010-10-11T22:41:00.003-04:00

OMG I am blogging again and within a week of the last time, well at least the same month, that is an accomplishment or it is procrastination. I am going to go with option #2.

So the unhappy place is still there, but I am trying to ignore it, maybe it will go away if i ignore it enough. One symptom of the unhappy place is that I try to go to the happy place by doing things like painting or practicing playing my flute. Basically anything but doing real work.

Oh and I have had a lot of cold medicine as I am trying to kill this cold that decided to appear yesterday. I think it is making me dizzy and kind of loopy.

Again with with random thoughts that have no order.... right the trying to get tot he happy place.

Painting, it makes me happy and I like what i paint for the most part, but i don't think they will amount to anything other than bright pictures to brighten up my apartment. I have had people tell me I am good and should sell them but i am not sure i could deal with the stress or the possibility of people saying my stuff sucks. i will stick with the painting for fun and relaxation and for friends.

Side rant: I also do not want to be one of those Art people who paint a canvas all one colour then put a black line down the middle and interpret it as symbolizing the fate of humanity or the meaning of why a raven is like a writing desk. Really! I do not feel the pain of the black paint as it drips down the canvas, or find the meaning of life in a red square on a white background (the answer is 42 but that is another story). It makes me angry just thinking about it, why can't i be rational with the ability to paint what I see and not try to find inner meanings in everything i do. Girrrrr

Ok ranting over, Sorry about that! So instead of writing a report this weekend i painted. I must get a handle on this habit of procrastination. It is great a the time of procrastinating but then i get all guilty afterwards. Oh well I guess that means i should stop writing right now....

Entering the unhappy place again

2010-10-04T20:05:00.002-04:00

So it seems I may be entering into my unhappy place again. Longish periods of uncertainty tend to force me into that place. Once on that road to the bad place, I begin to examine my life so far and then compare it to family and friends' lives. Then I see that once again I am the slow one and always take the long road to accomplish anything. Why do I do things backwards, why am I so picky, why do I always try to do too many things at one time. Just a few of the many questions that bombard me with their soul crushing unhappiness.

I am a Happy person by and large. I laugh, make jokes and make a fool of my self on a regular basis. I love the little things like the smell of fresh baked bread, reading a silly book and double rainbows.

I always feel like I am 10 steps behind everyone else and it is frustrating.

all I have to say to that is Girrrrrrrr

the end of life as i know it

2010-03-25T00:25:00.002-04:00

it was a very happy day and a very sad day, the day i found this website:

http://www.doctorwho-episodes.com/

yup i have no life, as this site has every doctor who episode ever.

all I can say is "yes, yes I am a nerd"

and that if you haven't heard from me in a while it is because I am watching doctor who.

I blame my parents! Love them bunches but really did you have to ensure that i would like science fiction.

books

2010-03-21T14:30:00.003-04:00

so i am not like every other person. It would seem that I spend my saturdays learning how to bind book. yup that is right, I spend hours creating books with blank pages. I suppose i took the course to help with work, but they are so pretty. What is wrong with me, now really. i was born in the wrong time period it feels like sometimes. Then I think, really could I have stood being a second class citizen if i was born a few centuries ago. Hells no! I have issues now with being outspoken some times and having a mind. Really could I have been married young and not gone off to university or traveled to the places I have. I do not think I could have been content.

Wow that was a random tangent. Ok pictures of the books I have made:

Girrr

2010-03-13T18:15:00.002-05:00

yup that is how i feel, Girrrrrrrr. I should be use to the fact that my life is in a constant state of flux, never living in one place long enough. I should just be use to the uncertainty of not knowing where i am going to be in 3 months. You would think, but no I am not use to it. I am not even remotely happy with the situation. I am happy that i get to travel and see my people that have scattered to the 4 corners of the globe, but I am not happy knowing that i will eventually have to leave again. Why do i do this to myself, really. Then there is the missing of my family, i don't know how I would have survived so far without the wonders of technology. Not being able to call up my mom on a whim, or chat with Justine when ever I want. To be able to send stupid texts to my sister or random crazy Internet links to Mat. To get random pictures of all of my nieces and nephews. Those are the things that get me through the day and give me the strength to continue on the mad journey that is the life I have chosen.

I know I sound miserable but if given the choice again, I would still choose the career that I have. What other profession gives you the opportunity to apply for jobs in the craziest of places.

One of these years something will manage to stop my crazy wanderings, I wonder what and where that will be.

So many things to say, too lazy to actually post them.

2010-01-11T21:18:00.003-05:00

It is January 2010, how nutter is that.

This is the year I turn 30 and I so didn't think I would be where I am today 10 years ago, but I have learned to roll with it.

Updates:

New niece Emily

New nephew Mattaius

Almost new niece (marc and kathey's baby)

I am painting again (see attached pictures) which reminds me I need to go and buy more paint.

And I am going back to Ontario for the dreaded 30th birthday. I am going to celebrate with my peeps or most of them anyways as a lot of them are scattered all over the place. You will be missed.

ok picture time:

in order:

1) crazy 4 part picture for alison

2) the snowman I made today because the snow in Edmonton is finally wet enough to make one (I miss moisture)

3) painting that I have dubbed "Goats of the Serengeti"

Sunday

2009-11-08T12:44:00.002-05:00

Sunday is suppose to be a relaxing day, not so today. First i realize that I don't have any eggs so pancakes is out of the question. Then i decide oh grill cheese and coffee. I get it all ready and fill the french press with coffee and hot water then i try to pick it up by the handle. It breaks and now there is coffee grinds and water all over my kitchen. Did i mention it soaked all the bread i was going to use for grill cheese which happened to be the last of the bread. yup breakfast idea #2 out the window. So i clean the kitchen and set the kettle to boil again in hopes that i will soon have caffeine in my system. So sunday morning not so relaxing so far.

As for how I found out I was in a street view in google maps. Well that day i was all confused about the weird car that kept driving by me with a weird contraption on top. i then learned it was for google maps and then promptly forgot that it ever happened until the other day at work some one was telling me they found their wife on the street view in google maps. I totally remembered the weird car and set out to see if it actually captured me. And it seams that it did.

I am going to attempt to do laundry, hopefully the disasters stop. (knock on wood)

Yup it is November

2009-11-07T01:26:00.002-05:00

As the title states it is November, and I suck at this blogging thing.

I did find my self on the street view in google maps today.

in maps type in :Northlake Dr / Green Meadow Crescent, Waterloo, ON, Canada and look for the blue truck, you will have to spin around a bit. Zoom in once and i should be there walking with a bag.

Look at me I have been googleded

Saturday Morning Wanderings

2009-08-17T22:55:00.004-04:00

I get a text at work Friday saying, we are going to a birthday party and I forgot to tell you [oh Phil never change:)]. SO I end up at this party and consuming copious amounts of alcohol, crash on Phil and Tatiana's couch after eating pizza and watching a weird movies I don't really remember except it had vampires in it. Anyways that is not the craziest thing i did. Well as I now have a job with a regular schedule I get up every morning at 7 am. no matter the circumstances. And so I proceed to wake up at 7 am and can not fall back asleep. I creep out of the apartment leaving a note for phil and T and walk to get my car and go home. As I am driving I am met with a large amount of FOG. Yup like pea soup. You would think I would want to get out of it as fast as I could, but like the crazy person I am, I get home ditch my bag, grab my camera and head out for a stroll at 7 in the morning after a full night of drinking and going to bed around 2ish i think, I didn't really look at the clock. And yes that was one sentence! So here are some of the pictures I took that morning. Enjoy!

New Sandles

2009-08-09T23:10:00.004-04:00

SO I am now the owner of the worlds most expensive flip flops. Desperation feuled my purchasing them as walking barefoot downtown ish edmonton (whyte ave area) is not the most fun thing to do. And I think I was making Tatiana very nervous. This all came about when my flip flops decided to die while wandering around the heritage festival (I think that is what it was called). Finally making it to something that was open on the holiday monday and thinking that they were actually on sale, but was oh so wrong. $8 later I know own the classiest flip flops know to man as you can plainly see in the photo. Yes there are skulls and yes there are roses. Need i say more.

Camera

2009-07-29T22:25:00.003-04:00

And so my camera has decided to not work. I am hoping that all the batteries i have are just not good enough to turn it on. Paycheck number one should help in that department. Time to buy some really good re-chargeable batteries. SO no fun pictures of the crazy creation I made, Next time!

New Location New Attempt at Blogging!

2009-07-26T22:42:00.006-04:00

So Edmonton,

That is where I am currently living. I should probably eventually settle down and pick a place to live for more than one year at a time. Well that is the theory. I am all about the theories, which most people know. Anyways I had the most amazing road trip with Justine coming out here. Love her to bits, and would not have done the trip without her. Here are a few pictures of our adventure across this crazy country:

Yes that is a giant tomahawk and yes it was in a town called cut knife and yes we feared for our lives just a little bit.

You also must love the signs telling you that death and injury have occurred on the hike you are about to do!

This is our new friend and mascot :

Maurice Le Castor

I believe he helped keep us sane after the 10 hour driving days

If you look close enough you can sea that we are both sporting the glasses with sunglasses

over top. The glories of oversized sunglasses!

So the new theory is that I am going to try and actually update this blog more often than one every few months. I am going to give it some actual effort this time or as I said, as the theory goes!

WOO WOO JOB!

2009-05-18T20:44:00.002-04:00

I finally got a job! it only took me 5 months but who is counting. It is at a little museum/campground which combines two of my favorite things to do, camping and working in a museum. The bonus is, I get to camp all summer! Which should be interesting, but doable.

Fun in the Snow

2009-01-23T16:03:00.002-05:00

So today the temp reached 0 oC which made it ideal to make a snow man. As seen in the picture my nephew Evan and I mad a snowman named Mr. Snowman (Evan chose the name). He was all bundled up while i was out in just a hoody and gloves. Evan then wanted to play tag but managed to fall into a snow drift that was over his head and up to my chest. All in all it was a fun day!

Stupid Computer!

2009-01-20T14:53:00.003-05:00

So All computers are evil. Mine decided today to stop working and then erase most of my hard drive. I believe I have fixed it all on my own but I had to download a bunch of stuff. SO angry! Boo Urns this sucks, I jsut want to be able to turn the stupid thing on and use it and it not decide to do stupid stuff. Is that too much to ask!

On a different note I may just apply to work at Tim Hortons in Afghanistan. it pays well and i gert to hang out with cute army boys. Lets see if I actually do it.

A New Year and a New Beginning to the Blog

2009-01-02T16:04:00.003-05:00

So 2008 is finished and 2009 is here. I am officially finished school and have been looking for a job in my field. Which is frustrating and slow going. There are days when I think oh all will be well and things will eventually get better. Then there are the few moments (which are very few but none the less disturbing) when I think have I chosen the right path? Did I just waste another 2 years of my life and a bunch of money learning a new profession just to end up unemployed? There are others from my graduating class that have found something. I just need to keep telling myself all will be well.

On a brighter note friends Tara and Rob are now officially married! All I can say to this is: Its about time:) Their wedding was great and a good time was had by all!

So onto another year full of new experiences yet to be had!

3 weeks left

2008-07-28T11:51:00.002-04:00

OMG I can not believe I am almost finished! woo woo! I never thought my stint in Peterborough would ever end. I have 3 weeks left of classes then i am back in waterloo for 4 months doing my internship at Doon Heritage Crossroads. I am super excited about this as i get to sleep in my wonderful bed and I get to be where people like me! Now to get though these next few weeks. The time is totally flying and I have sooooooo much still to do before I break free!

Ok now that I have gotten that off my chest, Nothing else is really new with me except I am an aunt again. My brother Marcus and his wife Kathy just had a little boy named Joshua. Now I have two nephews I can spoil rotten! It is kind of weird to think i am now an aunt well an aunt twice over, I don't feel that old. Any yet two of my younger siblings are parents. At times like this I get the feeling that I got passed over, and that despite the fact that I eventually would like a child of my own, I feel sometimes that it will never come to pass. People tell me that I am too picky and that I will never find someone because I am picky, but my thoughts on this are: that if you were really meant to share your life with some other person then you shouldn't have to lower your expectations just because there is someone close to what you want but not quite right. Why should I settle for not quite right when I can in theory have Just right. This doesn't mean I am not apposed to dating, that is how you find out what you like and what you dislike in other people and yourself. I just think that I shouldn't have to settle for less then want I want. Love is not something to be taken lightly.

Wow look at me being all deep thoughts today. Alright back to chemistry!

School = No Life

2008-06-10T21:16:00.002-04:00

So it would seem that school has taken over my life. But not in the fun way where group projects are discussed over a picture of beer or homework happen in the park on a sunny day. No i am stuck in a class of people who all act like they want to be in high school again. It blows my mind to think that people my age or slightly younger are going to treat others this way. I didn't sign up and pay for school to be caught in the middle of drama. I am in school to learn new skills to hopefully be employable when i finish. Why is it that people feel the need to put others down, to exclude people because they are slightly different or they are nice to the slightly different people. I am not saying that everyone should get along, what i am saying is that common courtesy has totally gone out the window.

Well that was a rant, anyways so school really is ruling my life. I wake up in a cold sweet in the middle of the night because i think i have forgotten to hand something in, or have fallen asleep on my books and there is a huge drool stain on the page. I need to be finished with the whole school think. i thought i was finished when i graduated university. All i want to do is get on with my life. it seems i am in a school rut and need to get out of it. Soon i keep telling myself, soon. Soon jsut never seems to come!

Almost done!

2008-04-14T14:57:00.002-04:00

and so the winter term is almost finished. One more exam and one more artifact to finish. I am so excited!!!!! Also i get to go home for an entire week. this makes me really happy as this place (peterborough) is not a happy place for me. It would seem that people here don't really like me and think i am irritating and annoying. Now really that is just not cool.
anyways here are some pictures from some of my objects. Enjoy!

How does one walk wiht two broken feet !

2008-03-28T10:45:00.002-04:00

Hello again,

So it seems that stairs and Mary do not mix, and when said Mary misses the last stair and twists both ankles and bruises both feet all is not well with the world. So after easter dinner and a whole bunch of food and alcohol i totally missed the last stair and fell causing some spectacular bruising.
The one up part of this is that i got to miss 2 days of work.

Other than the not really being able to walk and taking mass quantities of advil to stop the pain, school is crazy busy and i spend even more time in the lab. Oh on a "fun" note our class has to put on and create and exhibition in the front foyer of the college. YAY more stress, but if i get some good pictures i will post them. Oh and the reproduction i had to make for class is on display at Trent university archaeology department. So it seems i am good at making copies of objects who would have thought.

Peterborough is still covered in mass quantiles of snow and i am really not impressed. It is spring and the snow should be going away but still it hangs about.

Alright i am suppose to be doing a project so i should get going on that.

One week till i get a Tan!!

2008-02-14T23:02:00.005-05:00

I am so excited, i am going to Florida for reading week. I am going to get a tan!!! And besides that i finally have pictures from the Mayan pottery i get to work on. No i didn't put it together, but yes i get to take it apart and put it back together better. All the assembly was done in the field so it is rough and i will keep all my comments about archaeologists to myself.

the next pictures are some of the best and saddest about this project, i bet you can see why. but i need to go to bed and sleep, and will try to add more later.

Another year older

2008-02-03T21:37:00.000-05:00

Birthday number 28 has come and gone. It is odd. I never could have imagined what 28 would be like 10 years ago. I thought i would be like my parents and already have a family and a job and a life, but i find myself still in school, single and i work at Michael's part time. I wonder where i will be in 10 years. I would hope that at least i will have finished schooling and have a job. It would be nice not to be single anymore, but i am not going to push my luck.

Now that i have that off my chest. I was in toronto for my birthday and mat's birthday. Good times had by all. I also got to see anne and steve. it was sooooooo good and anne is sooooooo preggers. HOLY TOODLES! She looks great, i am sad i couldn't have spent more time with her and steve.
I am now back in Peterborough (gack) and procrastinating typing up a short paper. maybe i should do that and go to sleep, sleep is soooooooo good!

The Biggest PomPom Ever

2008-01-21T22:26:00.000-05:00

I do believe i have created the biggest pompom ever! ok maybe not the biggest, but pretty darn close. I will add pictures in a minute. The pompom is attached to a hat for Lee (guy from class). I was informed earlier that this particular pompom is going to start some sort of pompom war, well more of a debate on who's pompom is bigger his or Chelsea's pompom. I will keep you all informed, and as it is late and i have class early, oh and the person wearing the hat is Michelle my roommate...

...The next day! So i gave the hat to Lee and he said he loved it, but was totally self conscious of just how big the pompom actually was. So he attempted to trim it, and failed. I was just informed that he butchered it and cut the whole thing off. And so the giant pompom is dead! It is a sad day!

It seems that i am to "understand wood"

2008-01-07T20:59:00.000-05:00

"Understanding Wood" the name of one of my new text books. i some how feel dirty owning this book, i don't know why. but if the title isn't enough the first line of the book is, "Wood comes from trees." somehow i think that this term is going to be an "interesting" one. The best part is that i still have Fridays off. but of course i work for most Fridays oh well rent needs to be paid.

I am coming to hate peterborough more and more. It is not a city that endears itself to me and it makes me feel like less of a person for living here even thought it is for school. I somehow think that i am going to be snubbed in my field for taking the course here. That is the feeling i have, but am reassured by many that i am wrong, as it is one of 2 places to take the course, other being a 3 year masters course at queens.

I am being forced to the gym at lest 2 times a week. When i say "forced" i don't really mean that, as i agreed to go of my own free will, but have gym buddies that remind me that i said i would and the glorious guilt sets in and I go. we will see how long this lasts.

Christmas was a drunken good time, I wish I had had longer at home, I miss my family and I miss waterloo. I miss my friends of which i am neglecting to call or write which makes me a bad friend. I would like to say in my defence that i get so depressed that all i want to do is curl up in a ball and sleep which is usually the outcome. I wish i had the strength of character to be on the ball all the time. Many people here have commented that i am a Ball of energy and bubbly all the time. I wish that were true.

Anyways, it is the beginning of another school term and I am already behind in my readings, probably because i can not take my text book seriously. The new classes look interesting, i have had two of 6 we shall see if the rest are going to be alright or not.

On that note, i am off to bed, sleep is good, it seems it is the only thing good at the moment.

2 weeks left in the term

2007-11-28T22:29:00.000-05:00

Soooooooo tired.
i cannot wait till the term is over, but to get there i have to go through hell week, with more assignments and tests than i can count on both hands :(
I think i am going to spend some time after hell week and figure out how to put pictures on this blog thing. I would love to show you the progress i have done since i started this course. I am much more excited about the metals in this course than the ceramics. It will be interesting to see how i feel after we do textiles and organic materials.
I am starting to get slightly excited about Christmas, but only because i get to go home. Christmas is still dead to me, because i work in retail. I feel more and more like Charlie Brown. I still cannot understand how Christmas has turned into this crazy time when people go temporarily insane, and this is excepted by society. People are "allowed" to turn in to greedy, bitchy, stuck up, rude and shallow people and no one says a thing. Isn't that the opposite of what Christmas is suppose to be?

I get so angry at what this holiday has become!!!!!!!!!!!

On a lighter note we made a snowman the other day, it seems collage students do not appreciate snowmen as he was kicked in and stomped on within a couple of hours. so sad, Clyde had no chance.

I am sad now, i am going to go to bed, i hope everyone else is more happy than i am about this holiday.

No Longer Homeless!!

2007-11-16T21:41:00.000-05:00

I am not longer Homeless!!!
So excited, i am now living in an apartment with Michelle from school. i have 2 thats right 2 closets! how cool is that. rent is slightly higher than the old place, but it is so much better for my mental health. Now all i have to work on is not feeling like i want to sleep all the time. I hope it is not mono. i would be sooooooooooo mad if it was. I at least want to have kissed someone to have gotten it. but alas i am as single as ever.

On and even cooler note, i get to clean and put back together Mayan pottery, dating somewhere about 900AD. how cool is that! i am excited. who would have thought i would be this excited over really old pottery. I will admit it i am such a nerd, i know and i accept this fact. At the moment i am treating an iron pot, it was covered in what looked like burnt cheese, but really was some sort of caked on goo. Oh and i am starting documentation on a silver trophy circa 1924.

sorry for the nerding out, i get caught up in things some times. oh i also had to do a photo documentation project. i really need my own camera, and not a crappy point and click one either. oh well maybe it will be an OSAP thing. but we will see if i can afford that after i pay people back.

time to get back to the essay on fish glue,

Later!

Squatting at Chelsea's

2007-11-02T15:52:00.002-04:00

Squatting is fun! it is like a really long sleepover. i am excited about getting into a new place and not overstaying my welcome here. I am so glad about getting out of that crazy house, but am slightly worried about the chaos affecting my school work! ok i have to go, brain is broke again!

MOVING!!!

2007-10-30T21:00:00.000-04:00

so excited, i found someone to take over my lease!!!! i am getting out of here. such a relief or it was until i found out she needs to move in Friday. this Friday, i do not have a place to live yet, well i have an offer for a couch for a few days, i jsut need to find a place for my junk to live for a few days.
wow i can not believe this worked out. i was totally expecting to stay here and go insane. ok have to finish 2 projects and start packing and maybe sleep.

Brain is Broke

2007-10-28T22:51:00.000-04:00

my brain is so broken. work sucks the life out of you, and sleep oh sleep if only i could see more of you. I am suppose to be studying for a quiz tomorrow on the code of ethics for conservators and every time i start the book it makes my brain even more broke. Oh the joys of procrastination!

now i feel bad, maybe i should give it one more try before going to sleep. Oh boo i jsut remembered i have to take the bus tomorrow, i have to get up and hour earlier then i use to because mom and dad took the car away from me. not because i was trashing it, but because supposedly my brother needed it more than i did. i say boo to that! Again the random thoughts, welcome to my brain!!!

so sad

2007-10-26T20:20:00.000-04:00

so i am sad. i don't know the reason, i think it may be a lot of factors. Life just doesn't seem happy anymore. Maybe i am just really tired, maybe it is because i am alone, maybe it is because, my work environment sucks, maybe it is where i live at the moment in the house from hell, maybe it is school and how much work they want to cram into 14 weeks. All i want to do is be content. things don't have to be perfect, or just right. I just want to be able to not be on the verge of tears all the time. I don't think i am asking much, or maybe i am asking the world. who knows, i sure as well don't. It would be nice if there really was a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but realistically my faith in the existence of said pot of gold seems to no longer exist.

Back in Peterborough

2007-10-26T18:11:00.000-04:00

so i am back in the "lovely" city of Peterborough and am neglecting to clean my room.
Soooooo tired.
Work sucks and customers are bitchy. Now i get to look forward to roommates coming home and the mountain of homework. I get to try and find a subletter, oh please dear god i need a subletter. ok i need food, maybe the brain won't be so broken after i eat, or maybe it is permanent we will soon see.

see i did warn you the random chaotic nature of my brain!

ok so this is how it works!

2007-10-25T14:30:00.000-04:00

Ok poeple, so i am venturing into the land of blogging, look at me!!!
I figured that people want to know what is going on in my life, and yes i am working on the assumption that people actually like me and want to know what goes on in my life. I am currently back home in the loo for a visit and will be taking the bus back to peterborough in a few hours. Not looking forward to it at all. Long bus rides make me irratable.
Anyways this is going to be where i spew my random and chaotic thoughts. So good luck godspeed and enjoy the ride.