so sad

so i am sad. i don't know the reason, i think it may be a lot of factors. Life just doesn't seem happy anymore. Maybe i am just really tired, maybe it is because i am alone, maybe it is because, my work environment sucks, maybe it is where i live at the moment in the house from hell, maybe it is school and how much work they want to cram into 14 weeks. All i want to do is be content. things don't have to be perfect, or just right. I just want to be able to not be on the verge of tears all the time. I don't think i am asking much, or maybe i am asking the world. who knows, i sure as well don't. It would be nice if there really was a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but realistically my faith in the existence of said pot of gold seems to no longer exist.